I was up all night bringing a miracle to life. And this morning at 11:45am the world seemed to stop. A perfect moment has froze in place. I was holding the most beautiful baby girl. 7lb 8oz of pure perfection. She is here.
Wait! Stop! Slow down!! Where is she now!?!?
Oh, but of course. This magical story started last year…
And this is what that little girl looks like today
With each word I write the screen becomes more & more blurry. I’m trying to hold back these tears, but I’m starting to think this post will have me emotional till the end.
You know, I’ve been seeing magic for the past 12 months. I would walk into Luna’s room every morning, and see a different baby smiling back at me. She was growing right before my eyes. Even though my heart exploded with pride each time she reached a new milestone, I couldn’t help but feel sad. Was there some sort of pause button to keep her a baby just a tad bit longer? I would do anything to go back to this moment right here
Wait, I’m totally in that moment. I feel the warmth of her body against my chest right now. Her soft skin and smooth silky hair. The sound of her gentle heartbeat. Oh and that fresh new baby smell. How I’ve missed that smell.
I’m not missing the pause button this time.
This is MUCH harder than I thought.
I’m on my period. Thats what this is…right? I can’t be this wrapped up in my feelings over Luna turning one!?! It’s just ONE Liana. Breath. You have 70 more to go.
I have an idea! I’ll just start bragging about all her accomplishments! Thats what parents loooove to do. You know the one’s you see driving around with a sticker on the back of their car that reads “My child is an honor student at blah blah blah Elementary School.” Good for you Martha! Perhaps you need a sticker for being a parent too? Ok, I need to stop talking sh*t because when Luna brings me that honor student sticker I’ll be making copies of it to plaster everywhere.
But no, seriously. Do you know who deserves an “honor student” sticker? A baby after it’s first year. In just 12 months a tiny newborn goes from helpless to genius! Think about it….they were in a dark bubble for 9 months. Than all of a sudden “BAM” they get popped out into a bright, colorful, loud world. They see us these gigantic creatures. All the sounds they heard in the womb are now so clear. Their fragile little fingers touching things they haven’t felt before. They immediately latch onto the nipple (not all, but some) because they know that’s their way of surviving. Like how do they know that!?! Everyday they discover something new. It must be so overwhelming, and yet they adjust to absolutely everything in such a short period of time!!!!
What I have written below are Luna’s major milestones. As a parent these things were very exciting, and it was important for me to remember how she development in her first year. (Obviously it may not matter to many of you so go ahead and skip over it.)
How Luna spent her first year:
♥ In labor for 12 long hours. Finally, February 8th 2017 she was born. At 11:45am 7lbs 8oz, 20in
♥ February 11 – Really opened up her eyes and started smiling when we spoke
♥ April 4 (almost 3 months) – she actually said “Mom!” (However she stopped for a while) Still I count that as her first word =)
✈️ April 21 – Luna’s first time flying! She went to Connecticut with Michael and Bibi while I had my bachelorette party
♥ May 9 (3 months) – I made her laugh hysterically! It was her first REAL laugh and she wouldn’t stop! It was the sweetest thing!
♥ May 26 – She was apart of our big day! 💍👰🏼🤵🏻
♥ June 15 (4 months) – Tried baby food for the first time. It was peas. (probably should have given her something more yummier haha)
✈️ July 11 – Vacation to St John
✈️ July 20 – Baptism in Connecticut
♥ July 25 – Michael and I experienced every parents nightmare. Rushing their baby to the emergency. She was throwing up uncontrollably. Turns out the soy formula gave her that reaction. Poor baby =(
♥ 6 months – Fights us when we change her! Constantly tries to roll over and thinks its funny when we say “noooooo Luna.” It was like a game to her to see how fast she could turn around haha
✈️ September 6 – Flew to California with Luna alone! (It was surprisingly easy!!!)
♥ 7 to 8 months – I would say this was the time she started becoming “more human, less baby.” I remember one day I looked over at the monitor, and instead of laying there waiting for me to pick her up she was sitting up!!! She was finally able to sit herself up from laying down. That was like such a big girl moment!! Then we had to lower her crib a few weeks later because she realized how to use the side of the bed to stand up. She no longer just sat where we placed her. She would get on her stomach and use her legs to kick off and slide around the entire house. Or find something to help herself stand up. Her two bottom teeth came through! Started playing on the playgrounds and even went on rides at at the amusement parks.
♥ 8 1/2 months – Started crawling!!!! Her left hand was always in a fist! Like a little gorilla haha
♥ October 16 – First time to Disney!!! (We were the parents who said we wouldn’t take our kid to Disney till they were at least 3 lol that obviously didn’t happen haha)
♥ 9 months – Waves “Hello.” Understands how to pick up little pieces of food like her cereal puffs and puts them in her mouth. Walked while we held her hands up and then at 9 1/2 months she was able to use the walker on her own!
✈️ November 3 – Little family getaway to Georgia
✈️ November 21 – Thanksgiving in Connecticut
♥ December 11 – Stood up on her own for about 10 seconds!
✈️ December 14 – Flew to California for Christmas. (At first Luna and I flew together then Mike came later)
✈️ January 2 – Flew to back home to Florida
✈️ January 5 – Luna and I flew back to California haha
♥ January 23 (making her almost 12 months) – Took her FIRST STEPS!!!!
Isn’t this every parents dream? To see their child grow healthy and happy? You’re constantly on your toes not knowing what your baby will surprise you with next. If these are the amazing things she’s done in one year then I can’t wait to see what year 2 will bring!
I wanted to share something. I wrote this when I was 6 months pregnant:
“I am 6 months pregnant today!!! 💕 I can’t help but think about her every second of the day. Luna May, I promise to begin an end your days with telling you how much I love and adore you. I promise to pray over you & with you so that the presents of God remains in our family. I promise to make all your birthdays special (the way my mother did.) I promise to be your biggest fan and support you at every school event. I promise you’ll be reading tons of books! Russian ones too (and although you might not like it, the way I remember I didn’t, you’ll eventually thank me.) I promise to tell you how beautiful you are and to not let superficial standards affect how you feel about yourself. You will be born to stand out, not fit in. Oh and I promise you sports too, lots of them because your daddy is an amazing athlete and I hope you can challenge yourself the way he does. You won’t ever give up because you’ll be reminded what a strong girl you are, and that anything is possible. We love you and can’t wait for your arrival. Just a short 3 months away.”
one day when you are old enough, you’ll come across this post. (And many more which you probably shouldn’t read) haha but this one is okay, mommy approves 👌🏼 I want you to know that your first year shaped me into the woman I am today. Truth is. I needed your existence. I’ve been growing with you. Your curiosity for life opened my eyes to things I never noticed before. You’ve made me feel a way I can’t describe. I thought I knew the depths of love, but I wasn’t even close. Thank you Luna May DeGeorge for showing me what life is truly about. For giving me a purpose. Darling, I’m sure none of this will make sense. Not until you have a baby of your own (oh boy, did I just really say that?) Long ways to go…but this is going to be something very dear to your heart once you experience what I did with you.
My love, our first year together was one I’ll never forget. Every night when I would put you to bed, I would test out different songs to see which one would calm you down…then when nothing seemed to work I made up my own little Russian song for you and that did the trick.
“Баю-баюшки баю слушай песенку маю. Мама, папа тебя любят ты наша девочка наша кукла. Баю-баюшки баю спи моя Луна я тебя люблю.”
This might sound silly, but I came up with a super catchy phrase…I would say “you gotta poop? Thaaaaaaats a lot of poop” and that made you laugh hysterically! Or the song your daddy and I made up for you “Hi my name is Loonis, I’m a big patoonis, and I smell like doodis.” You’ll hate us for calling you “Loonis” sometimes. Did you know you had a mohawk for the first 5 months of your life? Gosh I miss that wild hair, but not as I much as I miss breastfeeding. Although it was painful, it was the most intimate time we shared. Tears trickled down my face, and onto my chest where I would see you…so peaceful and happy. I wish I could have done it a little longer. Baby girl, you’ve traveled more times in your first year than someone has in their lifetime. You were my little travel buddy. We would sit and people watch, pick out snacks for our next flight, listen to strangers tell their stories. We’ve met some great people together! You want to know what your daddy’s and I favorite part of the day was? Running into your room when you woke up and unwrapping you from your swaddle. You would immediately lift your arms up and stretch making the funniest faces and noises. Oh and I can’t WAIT to show you videos of your dance moves haha first it was twirling your feet & toes in circles, now you lift one arm up and wave it in the air “Zhy Zhy.” I literally just laughed out loud remembering how you’d jump and duck for cover when hearing me sneeze, cough, or blow my nose hahahahaha.
These are just some of the many memories I have and I know with each day we will be creating more & more, but your first year has been embedded in my heart forever.
I love you,